Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Trust....


Cobwebs on the corners of the mind,
With a spidery thought in its midst,
An unsuspecting fly of trust flits by,
Only to be gnawed and nipped.
            A mammoth arachnid that’s learnt,
            That trust does not always beget one,
            A time when it was a butterfly,
            Spreading its wings in the sun.
Cruelly clipped by master fate,
And replaced with a murkier twist,
Slowly that’ll transform too,
Could it be spared the tryst?
             How oh how do I bring back,
             My butterfly back to life?
             Erase the agony, the pain, the suffering,
             The vengeance and all the strife.
Will the tiny drops of morning dew,
And the first bright rays of the sun,
Wash away the cobwebs and,
Bring back the colours and fun?
             Perhaps it has not the muscle,
             To blanket the hurt and fear,
             A storm maybe, will wash the dirt,
             In its grimness, bring back the cheer.

Valentine couple -part two



read part 1 here.

Nitika had become Akash's baby, depending on him for every single need. She knew he was always there, nurturing her like a mother does. Apart from the pain of not being able to do anything other than lying down, she did not have any regrets.

I met them again after an year. Her eyes smiled, taking over the job from her lips which could barely move. She tried bringing her thumb and index finger together, looking affectionately at Akash and her kids, signalling, what a wonderful family god had given her!  She rolled her eyes upward and then closed them as if in prayer. I knew she meant that she had so much to thank her master for. She looked at Akash and a tear rolled down her eye, and yet it was so full of love for him. She was thankful for him, for her children, who never thought of her as a burden.

"She does that each day, signalling with her eyes and fingers, trying to tell us how grateful she is to me, to her children and to her god. But I tell her, how grateful I am to her, that she chose not to let go."

A stray strand of hair on her face seemed to annoy her, and I straightened it for her,and pushed it behind her ears.She blinked.

"You see that? She thinks she is being a baby, but she is actually my queen. She is on her "Simhasan" all day long, giving me instructions on how to run her palace.' he laughed. " And we keep running around like her "mantris" . I love the sparkle of her eyes, and the glow on her face, doesn't she look as charming as she was when I married her?"

"You bet she does, Akash" I had got my smile back. I shouldn't being feeling sorry these guys. Atleast not when they were themselves carrying on with life as if nothing had happened. Who was I to spoil their party?

But when your time is up, no love is great enough to bring you back, no prayers are powerful enough to turn back the wheels of time, and no tears are moving enough to melt the heart of your master. When he calls, you must heed his call and leave to meet him.

I had been in the middle of a vacation, when Akash called me. Worry was writ large in his voice.

"Everything ok, Akash?"

"Nitu has had a massive heart attack. We have rushed her to Orange city hospital, can you come over?"

"I'll be there by evening, don't worry everything will be fine", I tried to reassure him without really believing in it myself. Would things be fine?

She struggled for a couple of days before she eventually left to meet her maker. When he brought her home for the funeral, she looked at peace and I thought I could even see a smile on her face. Akash was surprisingly calm and I feared he would go into depression, if he did not come to terms with her loss.

"Akash," I placed a hand on his shoulder, struggling for words," Let her go. She will be safe in his hands too. You looked after her well. She would have been so proud of you and your children. Look at the smile and calm on her face."

"I had to, didn't I? She looked after us tirelessly for the first half of our married life. I am glad I could tell her how much I respected her and her love for us. I am thankful to god he gave me the opportunity to take care of her. If she had left us the day she had a stroke 13 years ago, I would have lost that chance. Anyway we never felt she was any different than us. She didn't have the mobility, but otherwise she was perfect in all other respects. I am happy she left us with a smile."

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(image courtesy: google)

Unrequitted love!


The beautiful earth smiled,
As she saw the first grey cloud,
Would her knight in shining armour,
Call out to her aloud?

Would he pour down upon her,
In his arms would her embrace?
Caress and tease and kiss her,
Make her heart pound and race?

She’d pined for him for long,
Bore the separation, the pang,
Living by memoirs of happier times,
When together they danced and sang.

He had drenched her with so much love,
She had blossomed into colours of every hue,
He had crowned her with his rainbow ring,
It had killed her to bid adieu.

Hearing him thunder and glow,
She was bedewed with mounting athirst,
Oh, there he comes, he felt him touch,
Upon her silken crust.

The magical moment she’d waited for,
Arrived, but sans all its glory,
For he came down with a force so torrid,
Shattered her with his fury.

Crushing her with all his might,
Destroyed her from deep within,
The beautiful flowers, the dancing trees,
Gave in, leaving her barren.

He raged and stormed all day and night,
And tore her soul apart,
She wondered why his love had soured,
Why hate had filled his heart?

As though by some crafted design,
He disappeared into the clouds,
Never to be seen or heard again,
In mystery it was shroud!

Through days and weeks and months,
She waited and pined for him,
Her lovely colours rusted away,
Her brightness starting to dim.

The sun shone bright and golden,
It burned her delicate skin,
Parched for his love and care,
She turned to stone within.

Would she ever be able,
To trust anyone else again?
Her heart and mind, body and soul,
Shattered by the deceitful rain.





Saturday, September 1, 2012

Girl-friend..?


“Mom, which is the tallest mountain in the world?” asked my elder one with a Let-me-test-your-IQ look on his face.

Pat came my reply,“ ‘Mount Everest’, whoever wouldn’t  know it?”

“Wrong mom, it’s Mauna Key, in the pacific ocean.” He corrected me, launching into a detailed explanation why it was the tallest.

While I admired how he had become a walking encyclopedia in our house, I was a little worried about his social skills. Was he making friends? I decided to ask him.

“Beta, who is your best friend in school?”

He seemed to ponder for a while before asking me back, “Girl or boy?”

Oh, so he had friends among girls too. Good for him, he is not as shy as I thought he was!

“Both” I wanted to know.

“Aadya and Samanyu.”

He had spoken to me about the boy, how they had been always fighting at first and then they became best buddies. But the girl..? Why didn’t he tell me? I must ask…

“Hmm…nice name, Aadya. New girl in class?”

“Oh, didn’t I tell you before, she’s my girlfriend.” He said as a matter of fact.

Did he just say girlfriend? For god’s sake he was not even 9, and here he was talking of girlfriends!

“Of course, girl-friends and boy-friends..”

“No, not girlfriend as in girl-friend, but girlfriend.” He said without batting an eyelid.

I was suddenly very uncomfortable. A 9 year old explaining to me the difference between girl-friend and girlfriend, ha! But I carried it on like a normal chat.

“Great, and how did you two become friends, I am sure there’s an interesting story like the one with Samanyu.” I said trying to sound pleasant.

“ Yea, mom, I was playing with my friends, running around when I crashed into Aadya. She was so angry that she wanted to complain to the teacher. I gave her a friendship band and said sorry, and she did not complain. Isn’t that sweet? Then she got a friendship band the next day and gave to another friend asking him to give it to me. And then we became the best of friends! To me, she’s extra special.”

“Sweet..”

Hubby dearest was looking at me quite amused at our conversation. He signaled at me to stop. When the elder one went out to play, I went back to my hubby.

“Oh my god, look at this generation. Can you imagine a girlfriend at 9 years?”

“For god’s sake, he is only a child. Stop going into overdrive”

“Overdrive? He knows the difference between girl-friend and girlfriend.”

“Don’t be silly, he is growing up and seeing so much around him. It is natural for him to feel and talk that way. I’d be worried if he didn’t!” he winked.

“You bet, he is going to bring a girl home one day and say, mom, she is your bahu.”

He burst out laughing. “Oh you and that screwed up brain of yours. Be thankful that he trusts you enough to tell you every single happening in his life. Now, don’t you scare him with your silly thoughts and advices that he stops being open with you.”

Now, that was a thought. I was indeed being silly.

“I guess you are right. By the way, who was your first girlfriend?”

Hubby dearest had a far away look in his eyes and a smile beginning to spread on his lips.

“I was in class 4, and she taught us Maths….Sarika Ma’m, yes that was her name….”

“Really?”  My ears were all perked up. “….And…” I asked rolling my eyes.

“And what? that’s it!” he baulked looking at me , standing with my hand on my hips. “Oh no,not again…”he said shaking his head,  eyes closed as if in thought.

(image courtesy :google)

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Spirited performance....concluding part


read part 1 part 2 


The next day, Shalini and Sriram went to banks together and began the completion of the formalities. Shalini found that Sriram was a great help and he kept her spirits high throughout the entire period. At the end of the week, all the jewelery had been removed from the bank lockers, the deposits were transferred to her account and the transfer of land documents to her name was complete. He later helped her sell off the land and most of the jewelery which she did not want.

"Sriram, I can never thank you enough, you not only helped me reconnect with di, you also have been a wonderful friend to me as well. How can I ever repay you?"

"There’s no need for that, Shalini, had I married Malu, you would have been my sister in law. Anything for you, my dear."

"Thank you again, but I must give you something...anything that I can do....."

"Malu wants to say something," he interrupted.

Then turning to the space next to Shalini, he listened.

"Malu wants to know when you are meeting Alok chachaji in Kanpur? He is supposed to transfer some property to you."

"Ah! chachaji..."then she turned to face the empty space herself. "di i'll leave for Kanpur tomorrow, I want to stay with them for some time.”

“Call me when you are back, my dear”

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It was almost a month and Shalini had not called back. She was sitting on the front porch with a cup of coffee in her hands, eyes swollen and red, when she saw Sriram getting out of his car and walking towards her.

“Shalini, there you are…. I was so scared, why didn’t you call?”

“Oh, really..?”

“Ofcourse, and while you have been gone, I’ve been thinking about you the whole time. Malu was a support to both of us, and now that she’s gone, I wanted to…I mean, I realized, we could be each other’s support system.”

Dramatically getting down on one knee, he brought out a ring from his pocket,

“Will you marry me, Shalu”

 “Of course….but only in your dreams, you scheming b*****d.”

“How can you talk to me like this, Shalu, I really want you to marry me..”

“Hmm…so that you may ask me to transfer all my money to your account just like you asked di, isn’t it? And when I refuse, you can kill me too like you killed di?”

“What..? How did you..? What nonsense..! How can you say such things, you know how caring and helping I’ve been ever since Malu left us. In fact it was she who suggested that I ask you to…isn’t it Malu,”
He said turning to face the empty space next to him, eyes filled with pain.

“Shut up, you liar… and let my poor di rest in peace. I know there is no Malu di here and she never was.”

She pulled out a gun from her bag and pointed it at Sriram. “Why did you have to kill di?”

Suddenly the sympathy and pain in his voice was gone. In its place was a wide evil grin.

“Yes my love, you are right, there’s no Malu with us. I ensured that I sent her away on a one way ticket.”

And with that he burst into a deep throated laughter. There was almost a sinister ring to it.

Very deftly he picked up a cushion from the sofa and threw it on her face. As she tried to duck, he lunged forward and caught hold of her hand snatching her gun. The gun now pointed at her forehead.

“Poor baby, things like these don’t suit delicate hands like yours. Ha, no, let me correct that….inexperienced hands like yours” he sniggered.

With one hand holding both her wrists, he pulled her dupatta with the other and tied her down.

“Smart. Very smart…all these months you have been playing along with me, eh? All the while acting like a damsel in distress?”

“I realized your bluff the very same day, just before we met at shukravari talav. I had almost believed you, and the tale that you spun. Fortunately, since there was time, I started flipping through di’s picture album, reminiscing about old times, also wondering why she never told me about you. Suddenly I saw your photos. At Neeraj’s birthday party….”

“Neeraj’s birthday, yes…. “a smirk beginning to form on his face.

“There was a picture of di throwing a glass of lime juice on your face while you looked shocked and everyone else cheered. I was bewildered. I called up Neeraj and asked him about the incident. He told me how you had been following di around like a madman, pressurizing her to marry you. You knew she was earning very well, didn’t you? Di had refuted your advances and in spite of that you followed her to Neeraj’s birthday party that day. Neeraj told me how you had been trying to misbehave with her and how she had splashed your face with lemonade.”

“Someone actually took a picture of that? That’s clever…lucky it didn’t get splashed all over FB, or did it?”

“It will be, but all over the newspaper, you moron.”

“I realized she wanted to spare me the worry and also keep me protected from you.This got me all the more curious to find out why you were now meddling with me. I realized that you two were not on good terms with each other. I knew that you have been spinning tales about di coming back. So I playacted talking to di after you “left” knowing fully well, you would be just out there listening.”

“Ah, yes, I was indeed….or else how would I know about the property in Kanpur?”

“There is no property, and there is no chachaji, our father was a single child.” She smiled.
When you brought up the topic of going to Kanpur, I knew you had overheard me and you bluff was exposed.

You shot her didn’t you?”

“Oh….so you know that too?”

“I told you I am leaving for Kanpur, but I went to Lucknow instead.”

“You went to my house? How did you know…?”

“Did you forget that you gave me your visiting card when you first met me? When I reached your house there was no one there, just an old housekeeper. I told her I was your friend. She let me in and told me the family was away at a wedding and will be back the next day. That was my golden opportunity.”

“And…”

“You mean, what did I find there? I found your room, and your cupboard, where you had hidden your gun and your blood stained clothes. I packed them off with me. I also found di’s diary that not only had her bank account details but also snippets of her relationship with me. So that explained how you knew the little details about us. But what I expect to find now is, why you did it. Why did you kill my sister?”

“The b***h was acting difficult to get. She was worth a fortune. I would be sitting on a virtual goldmine if I married her. All my financial difficulties would be over.”

“That is it? You killed her because she wouldn’t marry you? That is all a life is worth to you?”

“Oh don’t give me that emotional crap…”

“What did you get by killing her? Anyway you could never get her money after she was dead.”

“I know…I know….killing her first was a mistake. But once I did it, I figured I should get a fake marriage certificate and then get access to her account as her husband.”

“But you realized that I was the nominee in all her accounts….so you came to me with your story”

“Clever you…”

“The gift and the blink of the car headlights....That was you, isn’t it?”

“I had to make you believe your di, was back, right? How difficult is it to gain entry into your house with the duplicate keys that I found in your sister’s apartment?” and the headlight trick, Oh! I know that, she’s done that with me before, and I used her remote car key right under your nose when you were begging for a sign… how dumb can you be?

“You tried to act friendly and helpful, and ensured that I sold off the land and jewelery and every bit of money was safe in my account? And how did you think I was going to turn everything to you?”


 “Oh, that’s the easy part; I’ll show you how….”  He took a cheque book out of her purse and threw it on the table.” Sign these, my love and spare me the pain of having to shoot you too, or if you are very eager to meet your sister, I’ll bear the pain …with a heavy heart of course… .”


“Never, you leech…” and gathering all her strength she landed a hard kick on his groin.

He yelped with pain and fell down dropping the gun. She loosened the dupatta before he could get up and ran to grab the gun. He recovered and leapt towards the gun too and both tried to gain control over it. In the melee, the gun went off and Sriram fell down writhing in pain, the bullet piercing through his abdomen. He was about to catch hold of her legs, when they heard police sirens and heavy sounds of footsteps.

Suddenly there were policemen everywhere, and Sriram was now being accosted away.

“Are you ok Shalini?”

“Neeraj…. thank god you are here.”

“Shalini, the fingerprints on the gun matched Sriram’s and blood from his clothes match Malu’s. Do you realise how incredibly brave you have been to do this.”

She was in a daze, quite shaken and not appearing to listen to him.

He sat her down.” Relax, sweetheart, I’ll get you some water.”

Shalini slumped down, hands trembling and lips quivering with the thought that she could just have shot dead her sister’s killer. She felt nauseated and suffocated. She slowly got up again and walked to the window to get some fresh air.

“Blip…blip...”

Startled, she looked down at her garage, tears streaming down her face.

Lights…

From Malu’s di’s car...

Flickering twice….

Like she always did…..

"Soak no more in your own tears....for you know not what power they possess..." 

Malu di's favorite song playing in the background.

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                                                                 the end
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